thunderheart, I totally understand your confusion over your reaction to this incident. I think you handled yourself superbly in the situation. Because when the fear of death is ever so slightly presented. The logical brain does'nt return very fast. You reacted to protect yourself from harm. As a gun you did'nt know from loaded or not was aimed at you. And you took control of the situation. Bravo you are a real hero from the reaction you've shown. You are better than most my friend.